December 21st, 2005 (01:58 pm)
current mood: contemplative
current song: Harry Connick Jr. | Carol of the Bells
Today has been bittersweet. I took my last final ever today as an undergraduate. History of rock. Pretty easy.
Lisa was in this class with me. She was in my very first college class at Dutchess, it's funny that she was in my very last college class at New Paltz. She is leaving tonight for a last minute trip to Atlantic City with one of her friends. She asked me a hundred times to go with her tonight. She's so spontaneous. I hate spontaneity---but it was nice of her. She told me she was gonna call me before she leaves this evening in case I change my mind. Chances are, my mind won't change. She's too sweet, I'm gonna miss her. *Note to self, keep in touch with Lisa.*
It was sad walking through the campus alone for the very last time, thinking I'll never sit in another boring class in the lecture center again or look for the chipmunks and squirrels that resided in that building, I'll never be near the editing facilities in CSB; no more wandering around alone under the peach colored streetlamps that dimly illuminate the campus at night. Time to move on. Bigger and better things. Carpe diem and all that jazz. Just one step closer to great success is how I see it. Because I will tell you now, I won't stop until I achieve my goals, until I become something great. And I will be, just watch.
A grown up? Yeah, I guess you could call me that now. Technically, an educated grown up continuing on to pursue a higher level of education; don't doubt me when I say I'm a genius, haha. I've matured over these past four years, really coming into my own in the past year or so. I've had my moments of immaturity, we all do. But looking back over the last four years, I am not the same person today as I was then. I'm not even the same person I was a year and a half ago as I am today. I am who I am, take it or leave it; no qualms about it. Cliche in a sense, but so true.
I start graduate school in a month or so. It's a realization that this chapter of my life is now coming to a close. I leave behind a million memories from my undergrad years that I wont ever forget. Friends have come and gone, that's the way life is. To those who have stepped out of my life, there's always the memories. And to those true friends who have stayed, there are so many more memories just waiting to be made. It's time to move on. It's true that pictures never change, just the people in them do. C'est la vie. Maybe our paths will cross again someday; but if they don't, I wish everyone from the bottom of my heart, the best of luck in wherever you go in this great world and with whatever you choose to do in this life.
As for me? I'm New York City bound. Feel free to look me up in a few years.